I Am Bismark

this isn’t necessarily a good thing, but maybe it can help people understand why i act the way i do sometimes.

example: i refuse to buy anything besides an apple computer. this means that it will be a little while before i can afford replacing my current ibook. i could buy a cheap laptop, throw linux on it, and probably get similar use out of it, but i still want a sexy macbook.

this sometimes makes me come across as arrogant. i don’t judge people who don’t like the same things as i do, thats their prerogative. i just have rather picky tastes. i don’t know where this tendency came from. it seems almost a little out of place.

i am rather picky when it comes to food (see my last post), girls (dont get me started), and clothes. these are all pretty pointless things for me to be picky about, and they usually just cost me time and money.

i watched the movie resident evil last night because i was bored out of my mind. it sucked (see, there you go!).

i wonder if i should be less picky. i know i would be a lot richer. but how can someone just deny one’s personal tastes, especially if they are not particularly destructive?

for example, my mom keeps saying i am too picky about girls. its true, its been awhile since i’ve been in a real relationship. but why should i force myself into a relationship with a girl that i really am not into? i am still young. i am not balding (at least other people tell me so… the hair cutting chicks always tell me how thick my hair is… but i worry about that). i am not becoming overweight. i still have plenty of time to find girls that i really like.

if i can afford to eat the food i want and buy the clothes i want, is it bad that i demand that those be the things i get?

this has just been a string of thoughts.