i’ve figured it out
yes, i’ve got it. the grand unifying theory…
girls are a waste of my time. (excluding those i can have completely platonic relationships with… which right now equals about 5 of them) spending the energy to be with them, using the time to think about them, wasting the money to do things with them. worthless. i vow now to never stay awake during a sunday school lesson about marriage or dating. i will roll my eyes in disgust at every cheezy byu dating joke told in class or church. i will spend my weekends doing things that i think are fun, not worrying whether there is a chance that i will be able to get a date out of it or not. i will embrace my nerdiness. i will play video games and i will talk about computers, not caring if i am boring the crap out of any female within hearing distance. i will continue to work out and lift weights, not because i care about looking good at the pool next summer, but because it makes me feel good and energetic. i will save my text messages for setting up halo games and figuring out what kind of pizza to buy instead of flirting during class. i will keep learning japanese in order to improve my marketability in the engineering field, not to pick up on japanese women. i will wear nice clothes, because i like nice clothes, not because i care whether or not girls think i have fashion sense. i will hold out until i get out of this dating scene pit of despair so i can find interesting and attractive women while at graduate school.
am i upset? sure, a little bit. mostly at myself for being such a fool for these past two years. i have the fullest respect for those who find love and roll with it. but right now, it is not for me. no dates. you can find me working hard at school, working out in the gym, screwing around on my computer, or enjoying some football or a movie at home.